empty promises.

well.. fuck. i called the caretaker of this apartment and i asked him if he'd write me a referral for the housing authority company i wanna apply to because i think they required 3 or 4 but the caretaker answered and said that i'd have to call the office (and he gave me the number and names to ask for) to ask them because he no longer works in this apartment. he was a good guy.. he ACTUALLY did his damn job unlike PREVIOUS obsessive caretakers with fat wives. then i called the lady who is the supervisor of this IHS program to ask her but she never answered the phone, so i had to leave a voice mail. people never seem to answer the phone when i call them, i KNOW that half of them must look at the number calling them and never answer because i always have to leave a message on their voice mail. those two people were the only referrals i could think of at the moment.
and i know i've wrote/complained about this before but i think i'm just a source of entertainment to certain unemployed losers who rely on social security and depend on getting entertainment for their boring ass lives because they have nothing better to do with their time and their fat daughter, so hey- LET'S DEPEND ON GETTING ENTERTAINMENT FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE ACTUALLY TRYING TO DO SOMETHING WITH THEIR LIVES WHEN WE'VE JUST WASTED OUR WHOLE FUCKING LIVES LAYING DOWN, SMOKING, AND TALKING TO OUR DOGS WHEN WE DID HAVE THE CAPABILITY TO DO MORE WITH OUR LIVES BUT WE TOOK THE EASY WAY OUT AND LET MY GRANDMA (THEIR MOM) CONVINCE US THAT IT WAS TOTALLY ACCEPTABLE TO BE DEPENDANT ON SOCIAL SECURITY BECAUSE IT WAS TOO INCONVENIENT FOR HER TO ACTUALLY LOOK FOR RESOURCES TO HELP ACCOMODATE OUR DISABILITIES SO WE'RE ACTUALLY FUCKING SUCCESSFUL. IT WASN'T REALLY HER JOB TO ASSIST ME AND SHE WAS GETTING OLD.. SO I TRIED TO BE MORE UNDERSTANDING TOWARDS HER NAIVENESS. SO SHE TRIED TO REASSURE ME THAT MY COUSIN AMANDA WOULD HELP ME GET TO NEW YORK AND SHE HAD "ALL THESE PLANS FOR YOU{ME}! SHE'S GONNA HELP YOU GET YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE BACK ALONG WITH A VEHICLE YOU CAN DRIVE!".. turns out- amanda is JUST as naive but oh.. she's IGNORANT and UNCARING also! so i haven't got ANYTHING done since my grandma died. i DID manage to get myself moved out of that burnsville subsidized shithole though.. had to act outta hand and get kicked out, LUCKILY it was because i acted outta hand when they were SMOKING in a supposed-NON-SMOKING building. so i'm positive if they would have put that shit on my record- my cousin joe (the ONLY intelligent, caring relative of mine who has actually stepped up to assist me) had the numbers to attorneys who we could contact and sued the apartment's asses for unjustly kicking out a vulnerable adult from their living environment when they aren't medically supposed to be around smoking in the first place (because of the 3 surgeries on my palate). i was just watching a re-run of south park which just reminded me of this guy who lived at the burnsville apartment when i did, so he was disabled and walked with crutches- which reminded me of jimmy from south park- he has the stutter at times and everything! the nurse who usually fills my anodyne machine told me that she didn't think he lived in the apartment in burnsville that i used to live in anymore though. he USED to be my facebook friend but then he went bipolar on me and figured he was too good to be my facebook friend- so he defriended me without any warning or any real cause.